This is one of those weeks where I really have no idea what to blog about. Actually, I find it difficult to blog honestly sometimes because I feel the need to be perky and “up” all the time. While I experienced the company of good friends this week, as a whole, this was a disappointing week. It rained or was cold almost all week, so the weeds in my gardens have now gotten a big lead on me. I’ve struggled with some issues concerning 4-H. I just didn’t feel like I had it together…
I did get about an hour out there to explore, and do a little work in the garden on Mother’s day before I was dragged away, kicking and screaming from my happy place though. During our inspections of the gardens on Sunday, we glanced over to the ladder where mama Robin had set up housekeeping to find:
the nest is empty. No sign of mama or the eggs. The Man saw her there Tuesday when he mowed, but by Sunday, the nest was empty. It would appear that while building her nest on top of a ladder, behind a trellis worked well in protecting her from the resident hawk, it may have created the perfect access for a raccoon or possum to steal her beautiful blue eggs.
Empty. An unsettling feeling to say the least. It’s how I feel this week. Empty. Out of energy, out of ideas, out of patience and without emotion. That’s probably not what you came here to read about, but it’s the truth. Everyone experiences emptiness from time to time, and this is not the first time for me. Even in the midst of friends and family, with a smile on my face I have that feeling of emptiness.
The nest has me thinking though, what do we DO with that emptiness when it comes? Can we fill it? If so, how? Is this emptiness actually good for us?
Just look at that nest. It is a perfect combination of mud and straw, intricately woven together. It’s a sturdy home for birds and now it’s empty. The mama Robin will not come back this year, but if we left it (which we won’t because it’s just not in a good location, and the Man would like to have his ladder back) would she or another bird want to use to raise a family? Perhaps.
Like the nest, we too are perfectly and wonderfully made. If we are empty, doesn’t that give our creator a chance to fill us again? To help us to realize our purpose? Or maybe for those of us who are always “on” it’s just an opportunity to rest. I don’t pretend to know the answers to any of these questions, but I do think that there is a reason that we go through periods of emptiness.
That empty feeling is still so scary though, and it leaves me wanting to find a way to fill it, to make it go away. Usually this would mean it would try to EAT it away and I’ve been fighting that urge all week. I’m not sure what to do now but to ride it out. Maybe I’ll learn something about myself along the way, huh?
As you might have guessed, today’s weigh-in is not what I would have hoped for either…the disappointment just keeps coming. But it’s not all that bad either.
It’s a gain, but only .6 lbs. Into each life a little rain must fall. I’ve got an opportunity here in the void to make next week better. Hmm…did I just hit on something? Could this emptiness be an opportunity?
Well, while you mull that over, here’s what’s on Momma T’s Table this week:
Monday – Strawberry Oatmeal Breakfast Bar (The Man made them for Mother’s Day. He’s so perfect)
Tuesday – Caitlin’s Oaty, Fruity Bowl of Goodness
Wednesday – Strawberry Oatmeal Breakfast Bar with milk
Thursday – Hard Boiled Egg and Pretzel Chips
Friday – Caitlin’s Oaty, Fruity Bowl of Goodness
Saturday – Caitlin’s Oaty, Fruity Bowl of Goodness
Sunday Brunch – Spinach, Artichoke, Feta Breakfast Bake
Monday – Leftover Chinese
Tuesday – Wheat Thins, Almond Butter and Strawberries
Wednesday – Cherry Tomatoes and Cheddar Cheese Cubes, Apple and Almonds
Thursday – Orange Slices, Wheat Thins, Mini Bell Peppers and Hummus
Friday – Chicken and Hummus Wrap and strawberries
Saturday – Turkey Pita Sandwich
Monday – Spaghetti with Homemade Chunky Veggie Sauce, and Salad
Tuesday – Balsamic Chicken and Veggies
Wednesday – Pork Burgers on Pretzel Buns, Roasted Veggie Quiona
Thursday – Pan-Seared Salmon and Pearled CousCous
Friday – OUT with Pub Club
Saturday – Baked BBQ Chicken and Roasted Carrots
Sunday – It’s Graduation Open House Season so who knows?
So, while I feel empty inside, I the table will be full of food and family. Here’s to a week of discovery and filling my spirit. Have a good one, friends.